What I learned at Summer Camp Part 1
This summer I attended a grown up version of ‘’summer camp”. This particular retreat was all about play and really landing in your body, in your core.
I learned so much about myself in these 3 days of “camp”.
First and foremost the intention of this camp was about connecting with our core in a deep, playful way. And most importantly to remember to have fun! It can be SO HARD for us adults to find the play rather than the judgment, competition and doubt especially when trying something new and physically challenging.
I had never been on a slack line or a paddleboard before. I was both “kiddy” with excitement and a little intimidated.
We began on the slack line to help us get a sense of our core and balance in a deep way before we headed out on the water with paddleboards. We spent the first day playing on these apparatus. As you can see from the link I posted about slack lining…you are balancing on a very thin strap. We had a spotter to hold onto as we practiced (thank you Will!).
It was a challenge just to get up on the slack line, several feet in the air, on one leg even with a spotter. It took me several attempts. Once I was up…the line shook like crazy. I kept “trying” to get the line to stop moving. It was crazy to watch and feel it move so much. It seemed the harder I tried to get it to stop the more it shook.
The big lesson learned was the line was not the cause of the shaking… I was.
As I stood on that line shaking like I have never shaken before (and about to give up), trying so hard to stay on…Will and Dr. Sue both said to me…”breathe”. As soon as I took a slow deep belly breath and focused my eyes on the tree in front of me… the shaking stopped. The line went completely still.
I came into complete alignment with my core in a way I have never felt before. In those brief moments I found stillness, complete peace, and a personal power so profound it is hard to describe in words. The only word that I can think of to use is Love. It was undeniable.
I melded into the space around me, hardly being able to differentiate myself from all that surrounded me. I felt I was everywhere and yet nowhere in particular. I wanted to stay there forever.
There I was, balancing on one foot on a two inch wide line strung between two trees several feet above the ground, with only a hand resting lightly on Will’s shoulder, completely relaxed and peaceful. It was amazing!
I came to understand the shaking of the line was a ripple of what is happening on the inside of me. The slack line was completely still until I stepped on it. It began shaking as a ripple of what was happening inside me.
It’s symbolic and representative of the outer world and the “stuff” that shakes us when we live outside our core self… drama, pain, worry, etc. We can only stop the shaking from inside. We can only stop the shaking when we align with our true self.
When I first got on the line, I was trying so hard to make it stop shaking. When I quit trying, relaxed and focused my energy into my core and my inner self, came to my breath… the shaking stopped.
This required something beyond balancing. Balancing requires you to be thinking and trying. It’s highly muscular. What allowed me to stay on that line in stillness required my muscles, but it was more than that…it required a relaxing and letting go. I had to anchor to my core self, to my inner being and allow all of my energy to align and to relax into it.
It was a powerful illustration to learn that I am the wobble (fear, worry, judgment, anger, hurt) in my life…AND I am the peace, the joy, and the love! When I connect with my essence, my core…the inner peace and stillness inside me it influences my outer world.
Once I felt this, I knew I landed home.
Home in myself in a way that I had never experienced. Knowing what it felt like physically and energetically to be so connected to the essence of love, peace and stillness inside me was transformational.
While the retreat had us doing all these fun activities and learning how to paddle board, the ultimate learning came in the realization that is how we can live our life. Anchoring to our core self from deep within…Live our life anchored in LOVE.
Being anchored in Love is a much easier way to live life than constantly trying to find our balance. Trying to balance requires us to muscle our way through which is hard work after a while, we get tired and exhausted.
We get to choose which way we want to live…standing on the line of life trying with all our might in a constant struggle to stop the wobble…OR… take a deep breath, come into our core, our heart, our Divinity and relax into it and allow the peace, the love to come through and still the line. It is really that simple.